Desperado..
I'm dead! I think I've got sleeping disorder called erm.... insomnia! I'm so freakin tired but I can't sleep! Help pls... I've already seen my sleeping pills doctor to get more sleeping pills. But I refrain frm taking them unless I absolutely need to. My appointment's late afternoon tomorrow so there's no hurry for me to go to sleep. But this is frustrating.. FRUSTRATING!!
I never had a problem going to sleep. Even after drinking litres of coffee. I used to be able to sleep 24hrs straight without waking up at all. I remember my mother thought I was dead. haha. And I have to sacrifice my love for late night coffee because if I drink coffee at night. Good luck falling asleep! I haven't slept for 20Hrs. And I desperately need some rest but.. my brain doesn't seem to wanna rest. And never once do I sleep through till morning these days. Usually I'll slp for 2-3 hrs then I'll wake up then I can't go back to sleep anymore. If I'm lucky, I get to sleep for 5 hours. But tt's all...
Doctor says it's due to excess amount of stress and I might need to speak to a shrink. Honestly, I can't imagine me lying down on a recliner for an hour just talking about myself. I'd go nuts or I'll pass out. If it were me in the past, and I was forced to do tt, I'll fall asleep on the recliner. What wouldn't I give to drink my coffee, take a puff then fall into a deep deep sleep.
And since I can't sleep now, I'll juz take advantage of the situation and drink as much coffee as possible. And when time is up, I'll juz pop a pill then go to bed and fall asleep with Buble. Heck.. tt's a very good and bad idea at the same time. Good b'coz I'll get to enjoy coffee and fall asleep later.. but with the help of sleeping pills. And they are not cheap okay! A strip of 10 pills cost me something like $45. Imagine if I take it on a regular basis, how much will I be spending? Plus I've still got my regular dental visits, the monthly check up for my thyroid and IF I see a shrink I'll be spending something like $800 a month on medical bills alone.
Sings: "I'm a sick sick girl in a sick sick world. It is a sick sick thing that I can't sleep..."
Oh and tt Nicholas called me again, stupid me saw unfamiliar number still pick up. His pronounciation really needs ALOT of brushing up. I gotta strain my ears and say "HUH?" about 5 times before I could make out what he's saying. He was asking me "saturday you free anot? It sounds like this "sa-er-tay u flee alog". Pls laugh now. I don't get it.. I'm not picking up ur calls, I don't reply your msgs. Don't u get the HINT?? Oh and girls at the gathering would probably remember he taking other girls number right after taking mine. Then all of us scolded him.. in a joking manner of course. Who said anyone of us actually meant it right?! Anyway, the other day he msged me this "I'm sorry I took other girl's number." Like what the FCUK. I don't care if you take the whole world of girl's number.. it's none of my business. But I would appreciate it if you stop irritating me you blardy pest.
Okay, I'll try once again to fall asleep.. and I swear to God if tt blardy sa-er-tay ever dares to call me when I'm asleep I'll blardy castrate him myself.
I never had a problem going to sleep. Even after drinking litres of coffee. I used to be able to sleep 24hrs straight without waking up at all. I remember my mother thought I was dead. haha. And I have to sacrifice my love for late night coffee because if I drink coffee at night. Good luck falling asleep! I haven't slept for 20Hrs. And I desperately need some rest but.. my brain doesn't seem to wanna rest. And never once do I sleep through till morning these days. Usually I'll slp for 2-3 hrs then I'll wake up then I can't go back to sleep anymore. If I'm lucky, I get to sleep for 5 hours. But tt's all...
Doctor says it's due to excess amount of stress and I might need to speak to a shrink. Honestly, I can't imagine me lying down on a recliner for an hour just talking about myself. I'd go nuts or I'll pass out. If it were me in the past, and I was forced to do tt, I'll fall asleep on the recliner. What wouldn't I give to drink my coffee, take a puff then fall into a deep deep sleep.
And since I can't sleep now, I'll juz take advantage of the situation and drink as much coffee as possible. And when time is up, I'll juz pop a pill then go to bed and fall asleep with Buble. Heck.. tt's a very good and bad idea at the same time. Good b'coz I'll get to enjoy coffee and fall asleep later.. but with the help of sleeping pills. And they are not cheap okay! A strip of 10 pills cost me something like $45. Imagine if I take it on a regular basis, how much will I be spending? Plus I've still got my regular dental visits, the monthly check up for my thyroid and IF I see a shrink I'll be spending something like $800 a month on medical bills alone.
Sings: "I'm a sick sick girl in a sick sick world. It is a sick sick thing that I can't sleep..."
Oh and tt Nicholas called me again, stupid me saw unfamiliar number still pick up. His pronounciation really needs ALOT of brushing up. I gotta strain my ears and say "HUH?" about 5 times before I could make out what he's saying. He was asking me "saturday you free anot? It sounds like this "sa-er-tay u flee alog". Pls laugh now. I don't get it.. I'm not picking up ur calls, I don't reply your msgs. Don't u get the HINT?? Oh and girls at the gathering would probably remember he taking other girls number right after taking mine. Then all of us scolded him.. in a joking manner of course. Who said anyone of us actually meant it right?! Anyway, the other day he msged me this "I'm sorry I took other girl's number." Like what the FCUK. I don't care if you take the whole world of girl's number.. it's none of my business. But I would appreciate it if you stop irritating me you blardy pest.
Okay, I'll try once again to fall asleep.. and I swear to God if tt blardy sa-er-tay ever dares to call me when I'm asleep I'll blardy castrate him myself.
posted by Natalie at 4:19 AM
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