Case of a bad mood

Hello pple... I am once again sick. On and off fever, sore throat... bla bla bla. Poor Alvin... he isn't feeling well himself and he's takin care of me. Oh he cooked for me... other than my mum's lousy cooking. Tt was probably the best meal I've had. My poor darling is shagged out.... and I am touched. But then again, not feeling any better. For some reason, I can't sleep. I have insomnia... again.

I know, I should sleep. But I juz can't... and did I mention I'm not in a good mood? It's not Alvin... it's another disappointment. I can't help but wonder, why do pple only remember the bad things u've done to them and forget the good? When something bad happens due to unforseen circumstances. Why are pple so quick to judge and push the blame? Did nobody ever think of analysing the situation before conveniently shifting the fault? Why malign the innocent? So u won't feel bad about urself? So u won't be embarassed to admit u made a mistake?

I'm no saint, I'm full of shit. I admit. I'm a gap full of smart excuses. I eloquently smoke my way through conversations I don't wanna have. But at the end of the day, I don't push the blame to someone else. I don't point fingers. Coz I don't do to others what I don't want others to do to me.

By accusing me of something I never did, u crossed my line. But I'll give u the benefit of doubt tt u have a small mind. So I shall forget it ever happened and forgive u for hurting me with those words. Yea, it hurt me. Coz I valued u as a good friend.

Seperate issue. As far as my limit as a friend goes. If you're extremely close to me, I would treat u really nice. I won't be selfish with u, I would help u to the best of my ability, I would buy things for u, I would acc u. (Nickole hor? I very sayang u right?! heh heh...) And I do not expect anything in return. BUT, DO NOT take me for granted. If u ask me for a favour, I would gladly help u if I could. But don't demand for a mile after I've gave u an inch. Especially, don't do it more than once. Don't be mad at me for having a bf coz I'll have lesser time for u. Instead, be happy for me tt I've found someone who loves me so much. My tolerance level has a limit, don't push it. For countless times I've gave in to ur ridiculous, nonsensical requests. So when are u gonna start giving in to me? Unlike u, my requests are neither ridiculous nor nonsensical. It doesn't mean tt u've done one good thing for me, or u were with me during one tough period in my life. I owe u forever. It doesn't work this way. If it is so, then u probably owe me a few lifetimes. Harsh as it seems... you crossed my line. But bcoz I cherish the friendship... I stfu. But I don't think I can take it any longer.

Sighs.. I am done venting. I am sick and cranky. I need to slp but I can't. What is fucking wrong? And I realise alot of u cannot reach me these days. See, I have a bad habit of disappearing frm everyone's life for a few weeks. Only a few pple can contact me. And it irritates tons of pple. As shocking as it seems, I'm juz too lazy to reply msgs. Or call u back when I see ur missed calls. I know it's a bad habit... Lol. See if u're smart enough, and u really need to look for me. But I never seem to be reachable. You gotta be smart, follow nickole. Call Alvin! Or Elisa.. if u can.. call my mum. =x Alright... I shall start replying msgs and getting to missed calls starting now. I don't want Alvin's, Elisa's or my mum's phone to get bombed. Heh. Nickole, I miss u pls meet up soon!