My blog has become my place to complain, rant and whine!
I don't know if it's because school has started or because I'm just tired, I haven't been in a good mood for long for some time now. Maybe I'm just dreading the weekend classes at god forsaken mediacorp. Maybe I need more friends. Maybe I need to stop being angry. I don't know. It seems like I always have something to be pissed off about. I really need to learn how to fuck it stop trying to "play the piano to the bull".
My dear mum who I love.. wanted to sell my piano. OMG. I really freaked. I know haven't been playing it for a long time.. but I love my piano. I played many nice melodies on my piano it holds a great deal of sentimental value for me. And when she told me she wanted to sell my piano to make room to store her bicycle.. it pushed me further. I'm sure our house has room to store a freaking bicycle without having to sell my piano. Seriously. And she keeps telling me she's broke, she has no money bla bla bla bla bla... BUT she can afford a $1000++ bicycle, a $1000++ facial pigmentation treatment, a new macbook pro and 32gb ipod touch for my sister. Really.. people who are broke do not spend tt way. I have no idea how she can repeatedly whine about being broke but spend so much. It irritates the hell out of me. I'm gonna move my piano with me when I move out.
Someone told me tt being the eldest usually have the most responsibility in the household and parents' expectations of the elder ones are also greater. With tt, being the eldest also means doing the most work but gaining the least. While the younger or youngest one can get away with murder, do wrong things but still get rewarded. It is the way of life. Don't you find tt this is pure bullshit? If I do more, I expect more in return.. not less! Tt said, I am willing to do almost anything for family without expectations. But nobody likes to feel as if being taken for granted. If a person does something wrong he/she deserves punishment not a reward. How can people learn when they are not punished if they do something wrong? Especially if it is a repeated offence. It's like telling them hey, go ahead and do all the wrong things.. you'll get rewarded for it! Nobody is a perfect parent.. but such parenting skills are in my opinion definitely wrong. And it is widely practiced in my family. I'm sorry Elisa.. I love you.. but if nobody is gonna call you on your bullshit, you know I will hound you 3 folds. Tt said, I have to say you are improving.. not very much but definitely improving.
Today, my lecturer said "nothing remains stagnant, change is constant". I find this ironically true, the one constant in life is change, but if things are changing they are not constant. Over my 24 years on planet earth, I have gone through several changes. I wonder how nice it would be if I had remained a teenager and stopped the process of change to becoming an adult. However, change is good. At least most of them are. With every change presents a new challenge to overcome. And with every challenge I overcome, I learn something new. I hope this positivity will help me as I embrace the great change tt will come for me personally in the next year.
I plan to finally go for my surgery at the end of this year. I'm scared, skeptical but hopeful. I hope tt it goes well and my main health issue will be resolved. Once it is done, I can do so many things tt I can't do now. And I can definitely get back into shape! Now tt my thyroid levels are controlled, I've gained so much weight I can't even fit into my fat jeans. I have to work really hard to finally fit into my favourite skinny jeans. When I do, I plan to shop shop shop and shop.
I realized I don't make friends easily. Many of my friends told me tt the first impression I give people is tt I'm very fierce. Seriously? Maybe because I don't talk much to strangers or I'm not very sociable. Either way, I have to learn to be more sociable. But sometimes people really irritate me. LOL. Well... I guess we all have to learn to accept tt everyone is different and look past their shortcomings to really get to know someone. Sometimes you realized tt the person who irritates you in the beginning can be a really nice and genuine friend. I know such a person.. but I shall not reveal his/her name. =\
Btw, if anyone has Fundamentals of Management 6th edition let me know okay? I need tt book for this module but I really don't wanna buy it for just one module. Btw... SMA really sucks! They are saying the exam and assignments for this module will be based on this book but they are not supplying it to us. Instead we have to buy it ourselves. So ludicrous. I paid $7000 in school fees and I still have to spend $100+ to get ONE freaking book for ONE freaking module. I mean seriously, if you plan to set exam questions and assesments based on this text book then the school should supply it to the students for free. Really nonsensical. Oh well....
Time for me to sign off and sleep. Need to switch my body clock for the damn mediacorp classes.
Good Night!
I don't know if it's because school has started or because I'm just tired, I haven't been in a good mood for long for some time now. Maybe I'm just dreading the weekend classes at god forsaken mediacorp. Maybe I need more friends. Maybe I need to stop being angry. I don't know. It seems like I always have something to be pissed off about. I really need to learn how to fuck it stop trying to "play the piano to the bull".
My dear mum who I love.. wanted to sell my piano. OMG. I really freaked. I know haven't been playing it for a long time.. but I love my piano. I played many nice melodies on my piano it holds a great deal of sentimental value for me. And when she told me she wanted to sell my piano to make room to store her bicycle.. it pushed me further. I'm sure our house has room to store a freaking bicycle without having to sell my piano. Seriously. And she keeps telling me she's broke, she has no money bla bla bla bla bla... BUT she can afford a $1000++ bicycle, a $1000++ facial pigmentation treatment, a new macbook pro and 32gb ipod touch for my sister. Really.. people who are broke do not spend tt way. I have no idea how she can repeatedly whine about being broke but spend so much. It irritates the hell out of me. I'm gonna move my piano with me when I move out.
Someone told me tt being the eldest usually have the most responsibility in the household and parents' expectations of the elder ones are also greater. With tt, being the eldest also means doing the most work but gaining the least. While the younger or youngest one can get away with murder, do wrong things but still get rewarded. It is the way of life. Don't you find tt this is pure bullshit? If I do more, I expect more in return.. not less! Tt said, I am willing to do almost anything for family without expectations. But nobody likes to feel as if being taken for granted. If a person does something wrong he/she deserves punishment not a reward. How can people learn when they are not punished if they do something wrong? Especially if it is a repeated offence. It's like telling them hey, go ahead and do all the wrong things.. you'll get rewarded for it! Nobody is a perfect parent.. but such parenting skills are in my opinion definitely wrong. And it is widely practiced in my family. I'm sorry Elisa.. I love you.. but if nobody is gonna call you on your bullshit, you know I will hound you 3 folds. Tt said, I have to say you are improving.. not very much but definitely improving.
Today, my lecturer said "nothing remains stagnant, change is constant". I find this ironically true, the one constant in life is change, but if things are changing they are not constant. Over my 24 years on planet earth, I have gone through several changes. I wonder how nice it would be if I had remained a teenager and stopped the process of change to becoming an adult. However, change is good. At least most of them are. With every change presents a new challenge to overcome. And with every challenge I overcome, I learn something new. I hope this positivity will help me as I embrace the great change tt will come for me personally in the next year.
I plan to finally go for my surgery at the end of this year. I'm scared, skeptical but hopeful. I hope tt it goes well and my main health issue will be resolved. Once it is done, I can do so many things tt I can't do now. And I can definitely get back into shape! Now tt my thyroid levels are controlled, I've gained so much weight I can't even fit into my fat jeans. I have to work really hard to finally fit into my favourite skinny jeans. When I do, I plan to shop shop shop and shop.
I realized I don't make friends easily. Many of my friends told me tt the first impression I give people is tt I'm very fierce. Seriously? Maybe because I don't talk much to strangers or I'm not very sociable. Either way, I have to learn to be more sociable. But sometimes people really irritate me. LOL. Well... I guess we all have to learn to accept tt everyone is different and look past their shortcomings to really get to know someone. Sometimes you realized tt the person who irritates you in the beginning can be a really nice and genuine friend. I know such a person.. but I shall not reveal his/her name. =\
Btw, if anyone has Fundamentals of Management 6th edition let me know okay? I need tt book for this module but I really don't wanna buy it for just one module. Btw... SMA really sucks! They are saying the exam and assignments for this module will be based on this book but they are not supplying it to us. Instead we have to buy it ourselves. So ludicrous. I paid $7000 in school fees and I still have to spend $100+ to get ONE freaking book for ONE freaking module. I mean seriously, if you plan to set exam questions and assesments based on this text book then the school should supply it to the students for free. Really nonsensical. Oh well....
Time for me to sign off and sleep. Need to switch my body clock for the damn mediacorp classes.
Good Night!
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