Realist VS Idealist
Realist: a person who accepts the world as it literally is and deals with it accordingly.
Idealist: someone guided more by ideals than by practical considerations.
Lately, the thought of the future has been giving me nightmares. It's no longer a matter of "Que sera sera". I admit, I screwed up as a daughter, as a student and as a girl. But what I've changed, I've been through pain, sorrow and humiliation. And tt, has made me the person I am now. I've finally decided to study hard and not get distracted anymore. But then I thought, what can I do with a GCE O Levels? I may be filled with working experience, I'm capable of handling different situations and I am definitely I.T literate. I could provide a very impressive resume, BUT I don't have that piece of paper. Which in Singapore, is considered something very rarely seen from people my age.
Different routes of the education system:
After my O Levels, I could either go to poly, JC or pursue a private 3 years crash course degree. Then I thought, "how how? what paper to take? so many to choose from!" See I'm already 20, like my mother always say "Not young already! Few months later you are considered an adult." Urgh. If I choose JC, I'd be like 27 after I get my degree frm any local uni. If I take poly, I'd be 24yr old diploma holder fresh from the oven. So then I decided, I have to take my degree. I'd rather be a 24yr old degree holder. I'm afraid.. very frightened of the future. Is this what my mother calls "the wake up call"? I wonder..
I was talking to Nanas today, thinking if I should pursue a degree which I have absolutely no interest in. But will be in demand in the market in future. Or should I pursue something which I have interest for but not in demand? Should I be the realist or the idealist? My ambition, to be a singer. Ha. Easier said than done. I can sing, I know it, my family knows it, my friends know it. But a career in singing will not only require expertise and skills. It also depends if lady luck will knock on ur door and the connections you have. What if I don't make it? I will be someone with no paper, no job and no money. 死路一条. I am interested in anything to do with music, be it editing, composing or engineering. It's a passion I'm born with.. Thank my mum for forcing me to learn the piano although I wanted to pick up the violin. I grew to love the instrument.
Say, I could go into audio engineering right?! But hell, I probably won't be able to provide the life I've always wanted my mummy to have. Or I could choose to get a degree in something like chemical engineering! Or accounting and finance? Good pay, boring job. I'd probably end up hating work. But then again, I would be able to give my mum what she has gave me. Right? And if I were to get married, have kids.. then my hubby dumps me for some pretty young thing. I'll be able to provide my kids with a better life right? Daddy, always says find a rich guy and marry. HAHA! Like men are dependable, mum wouldn't have left u, I won't have to give u my life savings. Urgh. But okay, I still love you daddy.. I do. Okay not all men are bad, still I've always believed in independence. Tt's what all my ex's hate about me, I do EVERYTHING on my own I don't need your help. Thanks, but no thanks. I would think it's a quality, coz then I won't have to trouble you to fix my broken lamp. (=
Alright, so back to topic. I'm still thinking abt what should I do. Pursue my interest or go with the flow? I'm confused, so much to think about, so many to choose from. If only I'd listened to my mum and not get angry at the whole wide world. I would already be graduating soon. Sighs, finish my O's then think about it? Guess I'm too... impatient. Okay, gotta go cook now. Super hungry. *hears stomach growl*
Idealist: someone guided more by ideals than by practical considerations.
Lately, the thought of the future has been giving me nightmares. It's no longer a matter of "Que sera sera". I admit, I screwed up as a daughter, as a student and as a girl. But what I've changed, I've been through pain, sorrow and humiliation. And tt, has made me the person I am now. I've finally decided to study hard and not get distracted anymore. But then I thought, what can I do with a GCE O Levels? I may be filled with working experience, I'm capable of handling different situations and I am definitely I.T literate. I could provide a very impressive resume, BUT I don't have that piece of paper. Which in Singapore, is considered something very rarely seen from people my age.
Different routes of the education system:
After my O Levels, I could either go to poly, JC or pursue a private 3 years crash course degree. Then I thought, "how how? what paper to take? so many to choose from!" See I'm already 20, like my mother always say "Not young already! Few months later you are considered an adult." Urgh. If I choose JC, I'd be like 27 after I get my degree frm any local uni. If I take poly, I'd be 24yr old diploma holder fresh from the oven. So then I decided, I have to take my degree. I'd rather be a 24yr old degree holder. I'm afraid.. very frightened of the future. Is this what my mother calls "the wake up call"? I wonder..
I was talking to Nanas today, thinking if I should pursue a degree which I have absolutely no interest in. But will be in demand in the market in future. Or should I pursue something which I have interest for but not in demand? Should I be the realist or the idealist? My ambition, to be a singer. Ha. Easier said than done. I can sing, I know it, my family knows it, my friends know it. But a career in singing will not only require expertise and skills. It also depends if lady luck will knock on ur door and the connections you have. What if I don't make it? I will be someone with no paper, no job and no money. 死路一条. I am interested in anything to do with music, be it editing, composing or engineering. It's a passion I'm born with.. Thank my mum for forcing me to learn the piano although I wanted to pick up the violin. I grew to love the instrument.
Say, I could go into audio engineering right?! But hell, I probably won't be able to provide the life I've always wanted my mummy to have. Or I could choose to get a degree in something like chemical engineering! Or accounting and finance? Good pay, boring job. I'd probably end up hating work. But then again, I would be able to give my mum what she has gave me. Right? And if I were to get married, have kids.. then my hubby dumps me for some pretty young thing. I'll be able to provide my kids with a better life right? Daddy, always says find a rich guy and marry. HAHA! Like men are dependable, mum wouldn't have left u, I won't have to give u my life savings. Urgh. But okay, I still love you daddy.. I do. Okay not all men are bad, still I've always believed in independence. Tt's what all my ex's hate about me, I do EVERYTHING on my own I don't need your help. Thanks, but no thanks. I would think it's a quality, coz then I won't have to trouble you to fix my broken lamp. (=
Alright, so back to topic. I'm still thinking abt what should I do. Pursue my interest or go with the flow? I'm confused, so much to think about, so many to choose from. If only I'd listened to my mum and not get angry at the whole wide world. I would already be graduating soon. Sighs, finish my O's then think about it? Guess I'm too... impatient. Okay, gotta go cook now. Super hungry. *hears stomach growl*
posted by Natalie at 2:06 AM
1 Comments:
Follow your heart, and take up your degree is a must. Good Luck and wish you more than love.. i wish you health.
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