Hellos...

I thought of probably a million ways to start this entry. I typed, then erased. typed again.. erased again. typed again... erased again.. and the cycle goes on. Anyway, there's a start. So hello there. It's been 4 months. Well.. almost. Yes I'm lazy.. and basically there's nothing much to blog about. It's all almost the same..

I think, my past few posts have been about erm.. body aches? Cramps tt I've been having? I finally know what's going on. It's not tt I'm not exercising enough. It's my stupid thyroid problem. See because the smart assed me kinda overdosed myself on my thyroid medication. I've manged to turn my Hyperthyroid situation to Hypothyroid. Not actually Hypothyroid.. but they symtoms presents itself like I have Hypothyroid. But I actually don't... I have autoimmune thyroiditis. Yes. Tt's why I'm getting so unbelievably fat so fast.. and my body is aching like crazy. My skin dries up like a freakin cactus. My loss of appetite and my very miraculous temperature drop. Yar. I used to be called polar bear yes? Now on a hot sunny day.. I wear a jacket out and I don't perspire. Ya.. weird. Last year.. my thyroid lvls were something like 65. Then May I went for another appointment with my specialist and it became 5. The doctor cut my dosage to 3 per day. And my previous appointment... my lvls were still... 5. Now instead of taking the medication to slow down my thyroid... I'm taking medication to boost it. And I don't know yet.. but the doctor says if I'm lucky the situation may correct itself with medication. It may go back to hyperthyroidism. Or I may have to be on lifetime medication. Seriously.. how depressing can it get. It may seem like I'm not suffering.. but I seriously am. I can't even wipe tables and windows for 1hr and not feel pain for the nxt 2 days. It's not slight pain.. it's so painful I can't slp.. I cry and I have to go to the emergency room in the middle of the night for a jab coz strong painkillers won't help either. I can't wear heels and walk for an hour coz the nxt day my legs hurt so much I can't walk. And I can't exercise to burn off the fats coz the nxt whole week I'd probably be paralysed with pain in my whole body. So I get fatter and fatter but I can't do anything about it. So yes.. don't get sick pple. Take care of ur body. It sux to be sick. URGH.

So anyway the good news is.. the situation is getting better after changing the medication. I "tested" my muscles juz now. I ironed Umah's hair. Yes.. I ironed her hair straight. It's long and thick and very tiring. About 2 months ago I ironed my own hair and 2 hrs lata my hand ached. It's been more than 8hrs since I've ironed umah's hair and my hands are fine. So maybe I can try to wipe some windows few days lata. I am losing weight and starting to feel some heat. Really.. I've never been more glad to feel heat.

Lately.. I've pretty much been keeping to myself. Other than Alvin, his family, Richie and Mika... I don't meet anyone else. I tried calling Nickole but she's busy working.. Xuan's busy working as well. And the both of them juz don't call me. I hope u guys read this.. I'm always the one calling u. How bout we try u call me for a change? Hmm? Actually it's more of Xuan... Nickole does call me. Maybe tt's why I love her more. =x Yes Xuan.. I do expect u to call me after u read this. *Grits teeth*

TV Season is over.. I HATE IT. I used to have Grey's anatomy, Ugly Betty, Heroes, Desperate Housewives and American Idol to follow. Now it's all over.. Singapore shows juz... doesn't capture me. But I have to say the latest Mars vs Venus was pretty good. Maggi and Me is good too! HK Serials too expensive.. Korean drama too draggy. Taiwanese shows.. don't even get me started. Singapore singing competitions.... worse. Maybe it's coz we're such a small country.. small population.. and we don't have enough talents?? I don't know. The latest campus superstar is so ridiculous.. maybe they were nervous.. it basically sounds like a typical karoke session. What's so special? The previous Singapore Idol.. was... erm.. nah. Not good. I only think 2 of them are good singers. Season 1 of Singapore Idol was actually much much better. Seriously.. Everything about it was better compared to season 2. Now there's tt live the dream.. errr I wonder what to expect of it. Maybe tt's why I don't watch TV. I used to watch TV.... when they had under one roof, growing up and all tt jazz. I loved those..

Alright.. it's freaking 6.10am. I HAVE to slp now... maybe I'd blog again soon. maybe I'd leave the blog to die again for 4 mths... Maybe.. I don't know. Cya~