Answer revealed...

The Answer: I Cabbed there again... lol.

But there was a perfectly good reason. Coz I had to pick Alvin up frm work and he's in a hurry so cannot take train. HEHE.

It's been 8 days since my last entry. Honestly, life is pretty much boring and I have nothing to blog about. I know nuts about politics, so I don't blog about it. If I blog about how much I love Alvin pple say I mushy mushy. I can't blog about many other things coz I will offend pple around me. How liddat? Don't blog lor...

10 mins more for me to wake Alvin up. My gastritis flu is up again. You know why? Coz my itchy mouth juz had to eat potato leaves. It's juz so nice... but after tt my tummy turned upside down for 2 days. It's only starting to get better. Last time I had this problem I was hospitalised for one freakin day. It's not the hospitalisation part tt sucked... it was the ivy drips. Restricted my movement... I had to pull the whole drip with me to brush my teeth. And bcoz of the drip I had to be wheelchaired wherever I wanna go. I so don't want tt to happen again. Better watch what I eat.

I've got exactly 3 months for me to slack. On the 29th of June... I will officially start school. Diploma in Business. Geez... it's been a long time since I went to school. Wonder how would it feel to go back to school. 3 months... I better play hard before I only have weekends. Shit the thought of it makes me wanna sleep already. The paper chase... everybody's doing it. Sighs.

Oh and recent events has convinced me tt SQ air stewardess standards are getting lower and lower. By lower I mean they're getting uglier. And flight attendant translates to waitress in the air. The only difference between an air stewardess and a waitress is one works in the air the other works on land. Agreed?

Okay... I've got a big mahjong game this friday. Please wish me luck and hope tt I win lots of money. =p

I cabbed again..

I JUZ CAN'T!! I DON'T KNOW WHY.

Yesterday I had to go hall to find Alvin. See, I had all the time in the world to slowly make my way there. I WASN'T in a rush. I actually kinda miss sitting in the train juz listening to my mp3, reading my Cosmo and look at weird pple around me pole dancing in the mrt. Plus it was a LONG trip.. really long. Tampines to Boon Lay, I could finally listen to those songs I juz uploaded in my zen micro. BUT I DIDN'T GIVE MYSELF A CHANCE TO DO TT. GRRRRRR!

Why? Why? Why? Coz me took a cab... again. The last time I used my ez-link was on the 19th on Jan this year. I distinctively remember the day coz I msged Alvin to go buy 4D coz I was taking the MRT. It was one of the rare chances I could grab to msg him. HEE HEE. And the msg is still in my phone. LOL. My nightly routine before I go to bed when Alvin is not around is to read all his msgs then go to slp. =p And I bet those msgs could keep me pretty entertained in the train too. BUT THEN AGAIN, I DIDN'T TAKE THE TRAIN. Sighs.

I was so determined to take the train I tell you. Really. I prepared music, magazines and water. Majiam I taking aeroplane liddat. Lol. Okay, I was pretty excited too. Then clock ticked. 8pm. 8.30pm. I had to go alr.. but I didn't coz I wanted to watch The Perfect Man. So time juz flew past me... and before I knew it... it's 9pm. I became ganjiong spider. Did my make up, grabbed my jeans and any tee, stuff some stuff into my bag and ran outta the house.

I reached downstairs and faced a huge dillema. If I turn back, I'm taking the train. If I walk front, I'm taking a cab. If I take the train, I can enjoy my slow long trip and save money. BUT I'M SUPER LATE. If I cab there, I won't be late. BUT I spend another extra 14bucks. SO HOW? In the end, I still took a cab la. I know.. so typical me.

So today, I'm gonna tell myself to take the train there again. I wonder if I would take a cab again...... what do u think? Tell u guys the answer in the next entry k. =p Ciaoz!

when a man becomes a pussy

Willie Chan, understand this -

1. Being filial to your parents is your duty. They are your parents. Girlfriend can change, wife can divorce. Parents cannot change. They provided for you, took care of you, protected you, because you are their son. NOT because you are an obligation.

2. Choose your friends wisely because most of them will run when you are in need. And those who stand by you are true friends. DO NOT take them for granted.

3. DON'T CRY BECAUSE OF A WORTHLESS WHORE. IT MAKES YOU A PUSSY.

4. Your girlfriend sucks, dump her. It's tt easy.

5. Your girlfriend slept with someone else and it's not the first time. Spent all ur money, all the money you leeched frm ur parents. Doesn't love you, fucked many someone else time and time again and dumped you. BUT you're begging her to come back to u.. WHAT THE FUCK??!!

6. You asked me for advice, I DO NOT sugarcoat my words. So don't get angry because my words are harsh. The truth is tough. Reality is tough. Stop drowning yourself in fairytales.

7. You hate work. FYI, only 1 outta 1000 pple enjoy working. Who wouldn't wanna shake leg and be "ah-sia kia"?

8. You're complaining money no enough. EVERYONE ELSE AROUND ME INCLUDING MYSELF IS COMPLAINING ABOUT THE SAME THING. And btw, start saving. Not earn and spend every single cent you dumbass.

9. You're 25. STOP leeching on your parents. It's not like you're not working.

10. "The harder thing to do and the right thing to do is usually the same thing". From the movie the weather man. And it is very true. Stop looking for the easy way out. I could provide u the easiest way out, jump outta the window frm the 20th storey. The impact caused by your fall should take ur life. Then you won't have to worry bout anything won't you?

11. You can always choose to wallow in self pity, leech frm your parents till they die, waste precious time and end up a useless person. By doing tt, you'll be more stupid than you alr are. Or maybe u can take a pail and stand below my block coz I heard down here money drop frm sky.

12. Go to 77th Street and buy the Get-A-Life card u freakin no life idiot.

13. You are irritating me bcoz I've wasted priceless time, effort and saliva helping you. But after 2yrs, you're still the same. It's getting on my nerves.

14. Nobody can help you if you don't wanna help yourself. And NO, I will not be the kind soul to stick my hand into a toilet bowl over and over again. Everytime after I clean it, few mins lata u're still full of shit. If you still don't wake up your idea and continue being the stupid head u are now. Please seek professional help.

15. I apologise for being crude and vulgar. But you so deserve a few tight slaps. Where is the Willie Chan I used to know? And don't call me anymore if you choose to remain a retarded fucktard.

Scare-y-Crow

Yesterday was full of interesting happenings. And they're still tickling me... till now. Ya.. it's juz so damn funny. So, today's topic. Crows=I HATE THEM. There's a perfectly good reason. During my younger days back in secondary school. I was walking home from the bus stop, happily slurping my solero ice cream, listening to my discman. If I'm not wrong, I had alanis morissette playing. Three more steps was all it would've took to shelter me under my block. BUT, juz before I had shelter above my head... a crow flew and landed.... on my head! What happened next was a nightmare, total nightmare. In the midst of me screaming and trying to get the stubborn crow off me. This aunty came with her umbrella... attempting to hit the crow. But I dodged coz I was so afraid she would hit my head. Then the crow finally flew away. Tt one minute traumatised my whole life. I now have crow phobia.

So.. I went swimming yesterday.. all by myself. See, if I swim with friends I'd most probably be talking rather than swimming those extra fats off. Okay, back to topic. After a good 4 laps, I rested by the side of the pool catching my breath. Then I saw this beautiful lady dressed in full black, walking towards the pool. I don't know how she did it, but she somehow slipped on her 5 inch heels. Lost balance, and dropped sideways into the pool. Poor thing, she must've took hours to do her hair and makeup. I feel for her.. I really do. Unlike the two other girls who were also in the pool. They laughed at her. Worst still, they made fun of her as she walked away. Tsk Tsk. What happned next made me believe more in retribution.

I took a rest again after another 4 laps. I saw 2 crows drinking water frm the pool. So I kinda freaked out coz they were pretty near to me. After u get a crow standing on your head, you will freak out when u see crows okay. Don't laugh at me. =( Okay, let's call them crow A and crow B. Crow A flew away after drinking water, crow B flew to my table and poked my bag with it's mouth. After a few pokes... crow b gave up. So Crow B proceeded to the next table. Which is those 2 mean girls table la. Then Crow B kinda poked around here and there... squawk a little. And guess what, Crow B grabbed a nokia lipstick phone tt belonged to one of the girls. Took it in the mouth.. and flew away. HAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHAHA.

Naturally, they were pissed and irritated. HAHAHAHA. I wish the lady in black saw their faces. Priceless. Let's called them Girl A and Girl B. So they went up, girl A stomped her feet and pouted while girl B was consoling her. HAHAHAHA. Sorry.. can't stop laughing. Alright, they both took a smoke. After a short while, Girl B came back into the pool to swim. Girl A still pissed... her stupid face is so.... aiya.. stupid. Then after about a good 10 min, the crows came back. You shoulda seen Girl A's face. MY GOD. She really freaked out. She literally jumped outta her chair.. screaming for her life. The crows were squawking at her... HAHAHA. Then, one of the crows snooped around in their bag. And guess what they took this time? A BRA! HAHAHAHA! They were both looking at the crows with tt helpless face. While they saw the bra fly away. Now, one of them had to go home... braless. HAHAHAHAHA.

Goodness. I don't know if I should sympathise with them or laugh at them. No.. can't laugh at them. What if I get my bra stolen by a crow nxt them I swim. LOL. Alright guys, remember to close your bag when u go swimming. If not crows will steal ur phone and bra!

Deal with it...

When almost everyone around you is attached/hitched/married. And you are the last single person still waiting for the nxt one to come along. You go out with your friends, they bring their partners/spouses. You look at them holding hands, sweet talking, feeding each other etc etc. You feel bitter. On an average day, you go out shopping. You see couples walking together. Then you feel sad coz you're shopping alone. When you're on the way home in the train, you see some gross kissing and hugging. In your mind you go 可恶! You would rather stay home on valentine's coz you're probably the only one who isn't holding a bouquet of flowers. Don't fret! Deal with it..

I say being single is better than being attached to the wrong guy. You are not lonely and definitely not alone. Go out, meet new pple. Get aquainted with new friends. You are not undesirable.. be a little more confident. Men are generally attracted to girls who carry themselves with confidence. I don't mean you have to be all bitchy and cocky. Damsels in distress are yester-year's trend. Really. The lower your self esteem, the easier you are to get. Then you are no challenge. The guy would most probably move on to the nxt girl and if he doesn't get her. He knows you'll always be available. The more effort he puts in to get you, the more he'll treasure you after he really gets you. The easier it is to get, the easier it is to throw. At least this is what I think.

Don't keep sticking to the same bunch of pple. Meet friends tt you usually don't. Expand your circle of friends. Go to the gym.. bla bla bla. You never know when cupid might shoot at you. But be careful, coz sometimes cupid will miss cue. Lol.

I know this girl. Let's call her erm... Anna. Anna has been single for maybe 5years. She is a single mother. Let's juz say in terms of looks she isn't really a looker. She is loud, rough and at many times rude. One year ago she called me and asked me what is so wrong with her. Why won't guys take a second look at her. Why does she always meet guys who only wanna get into her pants. She can't change the fact tt she has kids. Buy one get one free theory doesn't appeal to most guys. Unless you are ONE HOT MILF. But sadly to say, Anna wasn't. She is double my size, she doesn't possess a pretty face. She is so "chor-lor" she becomes one of the guys. And once the guys treat u like one of them, you are never gonna become the girlfriend. Her whole mouth is full of vulgarities. So how to attract guys liddat? Not to mention the good ones whose existence are close to extinction. Lucky for me, I managed to catch Alvin.. phew. =p

So she took my advice, started to go to the gym. Make time outta her super tight schedule to exercise. Control her diet. Starts to doll herself up. Makeup, clothes, shoes, facial and the whole she-bang. She started to buy ladies wear... finally. Kick the bad habit of spouting vulgaritites every 5 seconds. She really slimmed down, a whole lot. One day, Anna was out with "the guys" when one of them brought a friend. And voila.. Anna is now happily engaged.

I have another friend who is facing the same problem as Anna. BUT. She didn't do anything about it. Making up excuses about why her situation can't be helped. And now is still bitterly-single.. complaining about every single shit. Condemn all male species.. not doing a single thing to help her situation. But still complaining... Sighs.

So yes.. deal with being single. It's not tt bad. Hell, I was single more than a year. My love life was disastrous. Cupid keep missing cue.. shoot sala arrow. Finally, cupid shot the right arrow... at the mahjong table no less. Wahahaha. So I say.. you never know where/when you might meet the right one for u. =p

Here I go again...

In my previous entry, I mentioned my body clock will be screwed by the end of the week. And it... did. No wait... it IS screwed. LoL. I should stop trying so hard to tune my body clock back to "normal". Since normal for me is well.. abnormal for the non-nocturnal.

Updates on the past few days.. went to Nic's work place for dinner. See, the first time I went there I didn't really enjoy it. Coz I was perspiring like mad... The place isn't tt bad, the atmosphere was pretty good. Although compared to pasir ris, it juz lacks a little mood. Nic wanted to swim, but I foudnd it pointless coz we only have one hour. And I usually swim at least 2hrs. So I told her to come up my place and we went for lunch after tt. Guess what... she left her mp3 player at my place la. So tt day my plans for teochew restaurant is gone. Alvin did come up with a brilliant plan to have teochew and return nic the mp3 player w/o going to ecp. BUT, we decided to give the place a 2nd chance. Lemme juz say... it was horrible. No.. not the place nor was it nic. It was the food... horrible horrible horrible. The plate is so huge but the serving is as good as non existent. AND the edges of the plate were covered with parsley. The menu has no variety. Nothing appeals to me except for cheesy sausages. Served with mashed potato and something called sauerkraut or however u spell it. I wondered what tt was.. but then I thought it can't be tt bad. My food finally arrived... I was extremely hungry btw. The looks of it... turned me off. The sausage is as thin as alvin's thumb. And only about 20cm long. I'm not saying Alvin's thumb is thin, it's juz tt sausage can't be tt thin. Right? Tt's not it, cheesy dogs my ass. I didn't tase no cheese. The mysterious side called sauerkraut tasted awful, the mashed potato is barely tolerable and may I mention covered in parsley. EEW. It didn't satisfy my hunger.. and it was... horrible. I could barely swallow it. Then I ordered mushroom soup and onion rings. Thinking how bad can they screw up a soup and side dishes. Here comes.. the mushroom taste in the soup is overwhelming. SERIOUSLY. It's like I'm eating mushroom paste. The onion rings were covered in... parsley. What's new right? Everything comes with parsley. I don't hate parsley but why... why cover onion rings with parsley? You might as well rename the place to "parsley-mania"? Urgh. I will never go there for dinner ever again.. never. Sorry Nic.. the food was so horrible it still haunts me.

Friday, we slept all day again. Yes, I know. I assure u there is nothing wrong with us except we're pigs. Honestly, there's nothing wrong with loving to sleep right?? Except the one snoring now is Alvin. And me... I'm blogging. His snoring has become like my "催眠曲" I have trouble sleeping without listening to him snore. LOL. Alright, actually I can't really remember what happened on friday except we watched Big Momma's House 2.. in the theatre!! You know I used to buy lotsa dvds and watch lotsa movies. But eversince Alvin came along, I never had to. He has everything... for free. HAHAHA. So paying $8.50 per head to watch a movie in an actual theatre is somewhat of a rare circumstance. It was funny... I laughed hard and good. I realised big screens are now using alot of small screen celebrities for supporting roles in movies. Take Big Momma's House 2 for example. Calleigh Duquesne (Emily Procter) frm CSI:Miama, Sonya Quintano (Marisol Nichols) frm In Justice and Paul Young (Mark Moses) Frm Desperate Housewives. Wow.. how cool is tt... no not the cast... me. I actually remember stuff like these.. Gees... I DO NOT have a life. Haha. So anyway we took some pictures.


Heh Heh Heh. Check out my warface! GRRR! =x


He is carrying me with one hand. I am as good as 4 bags of rice! Oooh.. my macho man.


Pure sweetness!


I did mention in my friendster in the about me section. "I love it when Alvin carries we high high up in the air". I'm serious. I love it.

Went to reef last night... some Aloha night shit. Aiyo. Chaos. It didn't feel like reef anymore. Got ugly belly dancer, puerile games and lousy Mcee. Yucks. I know. So I slipped my new cds into my album and we went for dinner at the other side. Went back to reef kaypoh abit and left for home. And till now, I'm still awake. Sighs. Finished reading "The Notebook". It is probably the greatest love story of this century. The book is somewhat different from the movie, although both versions took my breath away. I now possess both the dvd and the book. Yay! Oh and I finally found the revolving restaurant's number! Frm a wedding magazine.. of all places. Lol. I thought I could go there for dim sum today.. but aiya.. my poor Alvin is so tired. Darling, we'll go nxt week with sufficient sleep okay!

Alright, I shall now join Alvin on the bed and embark on a heavely journey to dreamland.. (I hope). Wow.. I made it sound so... novel like. Lol. Alvin once told me before we were together tt only in tight bonds, true friends, soulmates can you enjoy silence together. I never really understood what it meant until recently. Alvin and I can juz stare into blank space, lying nxt to each other without saying a word. And we're comfortable with it, comfortable with the silence. Enjoying the company of each other. There was not one awkard moment. I've quoted below a few small parts frm "The Notebook" tt I found truly inspiring and moving. Alright pple... till the nxt entry.. ciaoz!

"Don't break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit next to each other without speaking and still feel content. This is the great paradox."

"Our souls are one, if you must know
and never shall they be apart
With splendid dawn, your face aglow
I reach for you and find my heart."

"I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough"

"Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost. No birth, identity, form-no object of the world. Nor life, nor force, nor any visible thing.... The body sluggish, aged, old, cold. The embers left from earlier fires.... shall duly flame again"

-Nicholas Sparks

I got my beauty sleep

I finally slept... the natural way... for once. No sleeping pills involved, I concussed within 5 min after lying in bed. One word to describe it. SHIOK. BUT, I only managed to get tt one night of good sleep coz I didn't sleep for one whole day. It was.. basically hell. I had to force myself to keep awake. Play some mahjong (which in my recommendation, is the best way to stay awake), keep washing my face, don't stay at home where you have the luxury of a BED. I juz kept dozing off whenever there was a chance. Both Alvin and I concussed together in the cab. And no matter how hard we tried to keep awake, we concussed on my bed. We couldn't help it! Still, I woke up for dinner. Stayed awake to laze around for a while, talked to Alvin on the phone then... finally... SLEPT. Although it was one horrendous day, I did have the company of darling. So it wasn't tt bad. Plus, I'll get to adjust my body clock back to normal! But somehow, I have this intensely strong feeling tt it'll be screwed by the end of the week. =D

I realise when Alvin doesn't get enough sleep, he becomes a crazy person. He infuriates me with his hilarious and corny jokes. Tt are usually targeted at... well.. me. -.- Yea.. Although it kinda pisses me off.. but I can't help but laugh coz it's so damn funny. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I let him make a fool outta me. But what the hell? We did enjoy ourselves.

I finally got back the reading for the changing of my chinese name at this shop at marine parade. It was only AFTER, I got back the reading and paid for it tt I realised.... I gave the 师傅 sala time of birth. Shit right?! I paid for nothing.. duh. Damn irritated at the thought of it. Oh, and my internet connection is still screwed. In this century, it is difficult to imagine a life without internet. Damn.. I wouldn't be blogging without this magical technology. Neither would my sis be mapling.. and neither would we have free music and movies. Heh. Piracy. I love it! Oops...

Juz another day..

Another day of sleeping and slacking. Woke up at... I think... 6+ in the evening. Goodness... Mr and Mrs Wong is PIG! Oh and I finally found my January issue of Cosmo. It juz magically appeared on my dresser.. Coz I keep every issue of cosmo. Losing one issue would be like... so sad right? Marilyn called me to tell me there's a Shitzu pup at 3 months going for sale at $650. Honestly, it's very cheap. And I am very tempted to buy the dog.. since I can afford it. But then again, I would have to bring the pup to the doctor's. Groom it, feed it, and I could really save up all tt cash for something else more important. Like my driver's licence tt I've been wanting to get for a damn long time. And more money to spend in future. I know... Elisa will be very disappointed. Coz... I know she really wants the shitzu. But it will burn a hole in my pocket. And this month would be very tight. I juz got my account to increase tremendously in amount. Really can't bear to see it drop again. Anyway, when I'm really ready for a dog. I'm sure I'd get one with Alvin. For now, I'll juz leave it as it is.

Relationship problems are here again.. nope. Not mine. Heh heh. I never had a problem with Alvin... for now. Oops. Nope, I'm not gonna mention names. See, juz because u cannot stand loneliness. Doesn't mean jumping into a relationship will make u happier. You are only wasting precious time.. for the both of u. End of the day, what if it doesn't work out again? Or if you meet another girl again? What are u gonna do about tt? The cycle is gonna repeat itself... the way I see it. Nope, handle singlehood. It's not tt bad... I did it for a whole year. Which is.. well pretty rare in my case. Lol. To get into a relationship when you're not in a clear state of mind. Or... you're letting your other head guide you. Then you are in for a disaster... Think properly and make wise choices. The wrong thing feels right, but the right thing feels wrong. Then again, feelings were never really rational. Don't make the girl change for you... coz then, you don't love her for her. You love her the way you want her to be. Then what's the point? The one for you will come along. Tt girl may be wrong for everyone else, but she may juz suit u perfectly. Be patient....

Next, the birth of a new blog! As you can see, some changes have been made to my links. Look who's there... Mr Wong! Yea.. he started a blog of his own. First, I think he's really got a thing with words. And his views, to me, are very logical. Plus, I will have something new to read! Ain't tt great or what? Lol..

random

Hi guys, there are a few things I'd like to update about but.... I don't have the pictures with me yet. Will do tt once I finally get my lazy butt off the chair and upload the pics. Hehe. Alright, Alvin my sweet gave me one shocking pink rose wrapped up in with "man tian xing" and forget me not. He also got me The book "The Notebook" one of my favourite love stories, movies of all time. And some kinda card with the meaning of "soulmate" written on it. He actually hid the book in my wardrobe and the card in my wallet. And ask me to find it myself... lol. So sweet right? Tt was for our... erm wait. I don't know how to phrase it.... never mind. So yesterday went to meet Alvin's friends for dinner and some drinks. Then in the end, Alvin managed to persuade his friends for mahjong at my place. Wahahaha. And he won... 90 bucks. Woo. Out of tt 90... 20 was frm me... -.- . But anyway, he gave me 10 back... 50% discount. Lol. Oh and Alvin's friend Ben was so happy to know tt I smoke too. When he heard I'm a smoker he went "GOOD GOOD! PASS PASS!" HAHAHAHA. So funny. Met up with Mango on friday.. for mahjong again. Finally after so long... Mango really didn't change much. Juz tt his hair is shorter. Tt's all. And... Jay came to replace Mango after he left. Another 2 more rounds of mahjong. I haven't seen Jay in years too. Lemme tell u ar, both Mango and Jay haven't came up to my place for more than a year. For Jay, it has probably been 2-3 years. Richie tt bugger hor.... always come up one. He Forget which level I stay la! If I didn't remember wrong.. Nickole came up to the wrong level too. YOU 2 AR!! *smack smack*. Better remember hor! Anyway, sensei.. ur luck tt night was so good la! You actually won money lei! So in future don't be so pessimistic on the mahjong table! Btw, thanks for the supper.. Heh Heh. I'm not finished, juz now I went to fix burger for supper. The chicken patty and ham were all done nicely. You know what? I screwed up the bread. I actually managed to cut the "hamburger" bread until it split into like 3 or 4 pieces. Goodness, I never failed cooking.. but I screwed up cutting the bread.. Damn idiotic.

Case of a bad mood

Hello pple... I am once again sick. On and off fever, sore throat... bla bla bla. Poor Alvin... he isn't feeling well himself and he's takin care of me. Oh he cooked for me... other than my mum's lousy cooking. Tt was probably the best meal I've had. My poor darling is shagged out.... and I am touched. But then again, not feeling any better. For some reason, I can't sleep. I have insomnia... again.

I know, I should sleep. But I juz can't... and did I mention I'm not in a good mood? It's not Alvin... it's another disappointment. I can't help but wonder, why do pple only remember the bad things u've done to them and forget the good? When something bad happens due to unforseen circumstances. Why are pple so quick to judge and push the blame? Did nobody ever think of analysing the situation before conveniently shifting the fault? Why malign the innocent? So u won't feel bad about urself? So u won't be embarassed to admit u made a mistake?

I'm no saint, I'm full of shit. I admit. I'm a gap full of smart excuses. I eloquently smoke my way through conversations I don't wanna have. But at the end of the day, I don't push the blame to someone else. I don't point fingers. Coz I don't do to others what I don't want others to do to me.

By accusing me of something I never did, u crossed my line. But I'll give u the benefit of doubt tt u have a small mind. So I shall forget it ever happened and forgive u for hurting me with those words. Yea, it hurt me. Coz I valued u as a good friend.

Seperate issue. As far as my limit as a friend goes. If you're extremely close to me, I would treat u really nice. I won't be selfish with u, I would help u to the best of my ability, I would buy things for u, I would acc u. (Nickole hor? I very sayang u right?! heh heh...) And I do not expect anything in return. BUT, DO NOT take me for granted. If u ask me for a favour, I would gladly help u if I could. But don't demand for a mile after I've gave u an inch. Especially, don't do it more than once. Don't be mad at me for having a bf coz I'll have lesser time for u. Instead, be happy for me tt I've found someone who loves me so much. My tolerance level has a limit, don't push it. For countless times I've gave in to ur ridiculous, nonsensical requests. So when are u gonna start giving in to me? Unlike u, my requests are neither ridiculous nor nonsensical. It doesn't mean tt u've done one good thing for me, or u were with me during one tough period in my life. I owe u forever. It doesn't work this way. If it is so, then u probably owe me a few lifetimes. Harsh as it seems... you crossed my line. But bcoz I cherish the friendship... I stfu. But I don't think I can take it any longer.

Sighs.. I am done venting. I am sick and cranky. I need to slp but I can't. What is fucking wrong? And I realise alot of u cannot reach me these days. See, I have a bad habit of disappearing frm everyone's life for a few weeks. Only a few pple can contact me. And it irritates tons of pple. As shocking as it seems, I'm juz too lazy to reply msgs. Or call u back when I see ur missed calls. I know it's a bad habit... Lol. See if u're smart enough, and u really need to look for me. But I never seem to be reachable. You gotta be smart, follow nickole. Call Alvin! Or Elisa.. if u can.. call my mum. =x Alright... I shall start replying msgs and getting to missed calls starting now. I don't want Alvin's, Elisa's or my mum's phone to get bombed. Heh. Nickole, I miss u pls meet up soon!