crossing the line??

Okay, I juz had to blog about this. Let's go.. really straight to the point. Say you're a normal guy in an exclusive relationship. You meet this really pretty girl, it's normal to find her attractive right? I mean it's impossible for not only guys but anyone for tt matter to find people other than their mates attractive right? Now, say you tell tt attractive girl tt you find her attractive. Now this is another situation altogether. Then again, it could be juz passing a compliment or maybe tt girl is fishing for compliments. lol. Either way this falls into the gray area of "it depends". Okay... now.... say you tell tt girl tt you're attracted to her... tt's crossing the line isn't it? I mean it's okay to find others attractive, it's okay to pay a pretty girl a compliment but it's so NOT okay to tell tt girl you're attracted to her when you're in an exclusive relationship no? I mean why tell her you're attracted to her if you have no intention to further tt relationship with her? I find tt by doing so the guy is threading in dangerous waters no? I mean it's okay to be attracted, you have a little crush.. it's common. But should you act on tt attraction and turn tt little crush into something else? no! First tell another girl you're attracted to her... next sleep with the attractive girl. It always goes one step further...

You see, compulsive gamblers start small. Probably a small stakes game of mahjong or just pulling slots. Then once they get the thrill of it, they move on big stakes poker games, soccer betting, going to casino ships and before they know it, they're flat broke and in massive debt. It's the same thing with domestic violence. First it's verbal abuse, then physical abuse followed by emotional abuse. Which in my opinion is worse than physical abuse. Sometimes a person can taunt you and hurt your feelings so bad it'll be much better if he juz punch the heck outta you. Juz my opinion.

So you see my point? Sure they're exceptions.... sure people change... but in order for great good to happen a great evil must first be commited. I've always believed in tt... it's like cosmic balance. But then sometimes... people are juz sick and evil.

Okay.. so back to my life. I'm pretty much still bumming around. Other than doing research for my assignments I'm juz playing guitar hero and other nonsense games, watching my shows... and I can't wait for primetime TV to come back!! Only one more month before it comes back.. so excited. Finally get to watch my greys, gg, house, survivor, chuck... omg too many to name!! LOL. Seriously... I'm so behind on my assignments. Still not feeling the momentum to get it going. I remember I had this feeling during my first sem at CIM. I guess the long break is really a blessing and a curse! Gotta get started... gotta finish all my assignments in 2 weeks. Tt's the goal! After tt I can concentrate on exams... Then one sem is done! This sem has been overall pretty fun. Reunited with a few old CIM classmates.. glad tt it's not all strangers then I gotta start the whole getting to know you process all over again. Well... tt's part and parcel of life I guess.

I hate situations where I'm conflicted... you know those that make you feel like you're stuck between a rock and a hard place. I hope I wouldn't feel stuck again.. but sadly, cest' la vie! Well, nothing really new going on with me. The new semester has started and I gotta say I'm glad I went to CIM first. I probably would have no idea how to write up my reports and I would've been screwed. Somehow I always feel like my brain is not as quick as before. I wonder if it's because I haven't been studying for many years or because I'm just not as young as I used to be. LOL. I hope it's the former coz then I can slowly but surely get the "brain juice" back. HA!

On a random note, this thing happened lately with this friend that I will not name that kinda rubbed me the wrong way. To cut the long story short.. I went to her b'day dinner ate stuff that amount to approximately 15 bucks including tax and left early coz I was tired, I didn't know most of the people there and wasn't in a socializing mood. When I asked my friend how much I owe her it amounted to 35bucks! So it was decided after I left that the bill would be split evenly and it was also decided all of us would pay for her share since it was her b'day.

Here's what cheesed me off...

1. I had no say in any of this. It's like I'm being fined for leaving early.

2. Man.. I really should've ate something more expensive. lol.

3. My dear friend... let this happen even though she knew tt I may not like it she didn't speak up. It's like watching something go wrong and doing nothing about it when you alr knew it would go wrong. Why would you do something like tt? Or rather why would you do something by NOT doing anything?

4. I didn't know 3/4 of the people there. If those people were good friends of mine.. okay wait.. if those people were even friends of mine.. I wouldn't mind. I mean... why did I pay for your oysters, salmon, and kobe beef if I don't know you? WOW I'm nice.. I should go feed the starving then.. And dear friend... I don't mind paying for your share since it's your b'day.

5. I have a feeling when I told my dear friend about my unhappiness regarding the issue that she thinks it's about the money. Well, juz to set the record straight.. It's not about the money. I'm juz not in the habit of paying for people I don't know. I really like you as a friend... tt's why I brought it to your attention. I could've shut up, paid you and never ever contact you again. That is if I don't really treat you like my friend!

Ultimately, you can think I'm anal or I'm petty or I'm a just a miser. But I felt that if I didn't speak up.. things like these would happen again. And I get cheesed off.. when I'm cheesed off I whine and complain to people closest to me.. So really.. the victims of this situation are Alvin and Elisa. =p I juz had to pay up.. and like the saying goes problems tt can be solved with money are not problems at all. End of the day it's juz 20 bucks. Although I would really much rather give my friend the 20 bucks in cash than pay for a stranger's dinner.

Okay! Enough whining! Time to prepare to go to class... Also, I really need to get my driving license! Anyone know a good driving instructor to recommend?