Happy 2010

Wow 2010!! It's my last semester, can't freakin wait to finish this and move on! 2009 was fun and all but I hope 2010 would be much better. I know it's lame, who wouldn't want the next year to be better right? No but seriously, I think 2010 definitely has the potential to be much better coz I don't really remember many significant events from 2009. Well, my life is boring.

Just like that, christmas is over... new year's is over... I seriously love this time of year though. Receive christmas pressies over the christmas period, then receive birthday pressies less than a month later.. then collect ang baos over CNY period! Isn't it so fun? LOL. I did receive very nice christmas gifts though.. one of my fave chocolates, the bag I wanted in pink, my ridiculously priced facial ampoule, a t shirt for me to aspire to one day fit into (lol) and.... a diamond necklace! It's my favourite heart shape and lovely!

Well, I'm glad 2009 is over. It means mediacorp is over and I'm almost done studying.. for now. Did pretty well for my exams, can't really complain! Looking forward to doing better for this semester! But then again... 2010 means... I'm turning 25.. soon. FML. Mid twenties. I remember complaining bout reaching 20... Now I'm in the middle of it. I hate this. I hate hate hate hate this. Not like I have a choice anyway. Oh well.....

My blog has become my place to complain, rant and whine!

I don't know if it's because school has started or because I'm just tired, I haven't been in a good mood for long for some time now. Maybe I'm just dreading the weekend classes at god forsaken mediacorp. Maybe I need more friends. Maybe I need to stop being angry. I don't know. It seems like I always have something to be pissed off about. I really need to learn how to fuck it stop trying to "play the piano to the bull".

My dear mum who I love.. wanted to sell my piano. OMG. I really freaked. I know haven't been playing it for a long time.. but I love my piano. I played many nice melodies on my piano it holds a great deal of sentimental value for me. And when she told me she wanted to sell my piano to make room to store her bicycle.. it pushed me further. I'm sure our house has room to store a freaking bicycle without having to sell my piano. Seriously. And she keeps telling me she's broke, she has no money bla bla bla bla bla... BUT she can afford a $1000++ bicycle, a $1000++ facial pigmentation treatment, a new macbook pro and 32gb ipod touch for my sister. Really.. people who are broke do not spend tt way. I have no idea how she can repeatedly whine about being broke but spend so much. It irritates the hell out of me. I'm gonna move my piano with me when I move out.

Someone told me tt being the eldest usually have the most responsibility in the household and parents' expectations of the elder ones are also greater. With tt, being the eldest also means doing the most work but gaining the least. While the younger or youngest one can get away with murder, do wrong things but still get rewarded. It is the way of life. Don't you find tt this is pure bullshit? If I do more, I expect more in return.. not less! Tt said, I am willing to do almost anything for family without expectations. But nobody likes to feel as if being taken for granted. If a person does something wrong he/she deserves punishment not a reward. How can people learn when they are not punished if they do something wrong? Especially if it is a repeated offence. It's like telling them hey, go ahead and do all the wrong things.. you'll get rewarded for it! Nobody is a perfect parent.. but such parenting skills are in my opinion definitely wrong. And it is widely practiced in my family. I'm sorry Elisa.. I love you.. but if nobody is gonna call you on your bullshit, you know I will hound you 3 folds. Tt said, I have to say you are improving.. not very much but definitely improving.

Today, my lecturer said "nothing remains stagnant, change is constant". I find this ironically true, the one constant in life is change, but if things are changing they are not constant. Over my 24 years on planet earth, I have gone through several changes. I wonder how nice it would be if I had remained a teenager and stopped the process of change to becoming an adult. However, change is good. At least most of them are. With every change presents a new challenge to overcome. And with every challenge I overcome, I learn something new. I hope this positivity will help me as I embrace the great change tt will come for me personally in the next year.

I plan to finally go for my surgery at the end of this year. I'm scared, skeptical but hopeful. I hope tt it goes well and my main health issue will be resolved. Once it is done, I can do so many things tt I can't do now. And I can definitely get back into shape! Now tt my thyroid levels are controlled, I've gained so much weight I can't even fit into my fat jeans. I have to work really hard to finally fit into my favourite skinny jeans. When I do, I plan to shop shop shop and shop.

I realized I don't make friends easily. Many of my friends told me tt the first impression I give people is tt I'm very fierce. Seriously? Maybe because I don't talk much to strangers or I'm not very sociable. Either way, I have to learn to be more sociable. But sometimes people really irritate me. LOL. Well... I guess we all have to learn to accept tt everyone is different and look past their shortcomings to really get to know someone. Sometimes you realized tt the person who irritates you in the beginning can be a really nice and genuine friend. I know such a person.. but I shall not reveal his/her name. =\

Btw, if anyone has Fundamentals of Management 6th edition let me know okay? I need tt book for this module but I really don't wanna buy it for just one module. Btw... SMA really sucks! They are saying the exam and assignments for this module will be based on this book but they are not supplying it to us. Instead we have to buy it ourselves. So ludicrous. I paid $7000 in school fees and I still have to spend $100+ to get ONE freaking book for ONE freaking module. I mean seriously, if you plan to set exam questions and assesments based on this text book then the school should supply it to the students for free. Really nonsensical. Oh well....

Time for me to sign off and sleep. Need to switch my body clock for the damn mediacorp classes.
Good Night!

Can't sleep

For some reason... I can't sleep. I felt super hungry a while back so I had some food. And it actually made me feel worse!! It left me burping non stop. Urgh. My exam is less than 15 hrs away... and sleep is a very precious thing when it comes to exams. So in an attempt to make myself sleepy... I decided to write a very difficult post. My first post written using my ipod. Lol. Better go try to sleep now! Here's hoping tmr is a good day. After tmr... I'm so gonna R&R. Can't wait!

Very tired..

Exhaustion often occurs during exam week. One paper done.. praying I did well since I was sick during tt paper, brain probably not functioning properly. One more paper on thursday... and I've been studying for it since I came home from the first paper which was on monday night. Slept at 1plus am woke up at 1plus pm started studying at 2pm and only stopping for food, smokes and shower. Stress is making pimples pop up all over my face! Hate tt! After close to 12hours of studying and studying... I cannot take it anymore.. sleep time has come... my bed is calling out to me. You know what would help me? I need Lexie Grey's photographic memory.. how I wish I can have tt just for one day. lol. Still suffering from Grey's withdrawal. =\ Watched the True Blood finale and I don't like it!! So super anti climatic. Read from aussielo tt it was Hoyt's mum who kidnapped Bill. If tt is true... season 3 should be interesting. Too bad it's only coming back next summer. Well... no choice! Alright people, sleepy time. Wish me luck!

Exams are around the corner and I'm feeling rather stressed. It's always this period tt makes me very jittery.. like the whole world is gonna crumble around me. But somehow I always manage to scrape through with good results. Must have done something right I guess. But this is a whole new platform... sma is not cim where exams answers are literally spoon fed to me. LOL! I'm pretty sure it will be tougher but if I study I should be able to handle it no problem. I've really been taking this semester very easy on myself. This is so not the right attitude. Next sem I must be more enthusiastic and hardworking. And next sem is where the craziness starts... I have to travel to mediacorp twice a week! Tt place is what I like to call out of nowhere... zzz. And from what I heard.. assignments are crazy too! Well I guess life of a student is as such.

I'm really looking forward to the 2 weeks break before the new semester starts. I'm gonna meet up with the gals who I haven't seen in a long time. Catch up and definitely... MAHJONG. omg. It's been so long since I MJ through the night. It's super unhealthy but I love it! I'm definitely gonna have some sister time with my dear sis. Haven't been talking much to her coz we're both rushing our assignments last minute and for now... mugging for next weeks exams. I hope I do well. Good news is... tonight I can sleep without thinking about any assignments. lol.

Had a talk with mum just now for about 20 min... it's been some time since we've really talked. She's going through some stuff now tt I'm pretty sure is not easy for her. But I can't help her much except to juz let her know tt whatever it is.. I have her back. And for once.... I hugged her and told her I love her. I feel super mushy. I'm not a mushy person.. Alvin always says tt I'm the most unromantic of all his girlfriends. LOL! To a certain extent I agree, I juz don't think I'm as bad as he thinks I am. =x I juz think flowers are lame... they're so super expensive and they're juz decorative. And the best part they're only decorative for a few days before they wilt. What a waste of money. Now, something like my favourite food will make me super happy. And I don't even ask for things like wagyu or foie gras or anything real fancy. I like teochew porridge, minced pork noodles from 85 market and dim sum! Isn't it super achievable? I'm so easy to please! =pp And seriously, everyone has their own view of what is romantic. Some girls like flowers, I like food or things I can use. I'd like to think I'm a little bit more on the practical side rather than unromatic. Although if Alvin proposes to me with a HDB application form... I might juz kill him. haha.

My tv shows are all coming back.... I'm so super happy. Glee is back after teasing me with the preview of the pilot months ago... gotta say it's good! Grey's is also coming back soon, although I gotta say I'm not really looking forward to all the sadness now tt George is a confirmed gone case. Now... I'm really hoping NBC decides to bring back Chuck earlier than they announced.. mid-season is juz too long a wait!!! Well... with all my favourite fall shows coming back, I would at least have stuff to distract me from thinking about my True Blood. One whole year before I get to see my favourite vampire Eric Northman again... this totally sucks!!! no pun intended. Alright.. better get back to my reading. Hope I score well for exams!!

Sometimes.. people can be so full of themselves I really cannot stand it. Someone should really put them in their place and ask them to look around them. Because the world is not all about them. You know how a conversation always ends up with them. Like when you say something and they will automatically say something else like "yaya, this happen to my brother's friend's mother's aunty before" no matter what it is.. they link it back to themselves. zzzzzzz. I hate pple like this. How do you hold up a proper conversation with such a person if all you talk about is yourself? omg.

I also don't like to talk to people who constantly interrupt you. tt can be super irritating too. I think I really have zero tolerance sometimes. It's not tt I think I'm superior, I juz think why comprimise juz to make another friend you don't like? I mean afterall, not everybody gets along. Tt's how the world works no? If not there will be world peace! Don't get me wrong, I'm all for world peace. But it's not like it will happen if I start making friends with pple I don't like.

I recently met someone who is both full of themselves and constantly interrupting other pple. And I don't know why.. whenever he speaks I juz wanna slap him left right up down. HAHA. Firstly, he makes no sense and is always so lame. And he such a girl! But oh well.. so long as he doesn't step on my tail, I'll stay away from his.

Big changes are happening lately. Especially the one at home. I don't know if I like it, but there's nothing I can do. Ultimately, choice is not in my hands. I guess Elisa will know what I'm talking about. I should really consider making this blog private! then I can really trash talk without caring if someone who shouldn't read this is reading it. hmmmm. but then again, what's the point of having a blog if it's private? I should juz say what I want! Freedom of speech! But to quote myself.. there is no such thing as freedom of speech. Wouldn't wanna get sued!

Alright.. gotta go prepare to go out! Assignments are almost done. 2 pages left to write and then consolidation and everthing's done. Man... I really need to step up next sem. can't afford not to! Ciaoz peeps!

moving at snail's speed

I think I'm in trouble. My assignments are moving at snail's speed and it's due very soon and exams are in one month. DIE! Really need to push it out and make sure I don't get distracted! I'm hoping I can finish the rest of my assignments by the end of next week if not latest by mid of following week. Or I swear I might not finish it. Serious. Or I will finish it but I will have to totally mug for exams. Next month I'm so gonna do my assignments as soon as I get the instructions coz there's this extra mediacorp module tt I have to take with extra assignments so if I delay like I did I will have to really hug Buddha's leg and pray for a miracle. literally.

Moving on to less intense subjects... Alvin bought me an itouch for our anniversary! wooo! Once again he managed to bring it into my house and put it on my table without me noticing and the whole time I was there. I opened the door for him and all tt. I really don't know how he does it. It was a real pleasant surprise though. Made my day. hee. Actually no la.. more like made my month. lol! I shall not say mushy stuff here to gross pple out but if I wanted to I would say really mushy stuff. =\\

Alright. back to assignments! I'm so not gonna sleep tonight. I have to finish at least one tonight! *pats my own back for encouragement*